Showing posts with label memories. Show all posts
Showing posts with label memories. Show all posts

Monday, January 19, 2015

A Piece of Memory



Who am I?
Which part of me is me?
As I maneuver through the images of memories,
I am forming my own memories.

The Chinese goddesses and the temples are part of my life,
And yet Mary, Jesus and the cross are part of my identity too.
As I move, I see colors and colorless,
I see memories captured, memories forming,
And memories fading…

I turn,
Take a glance at the gallery.
I see visitors frantically trying to retain their memories
By searching through the many images
For the one they can bring home.
And I too, bring back one
Of me,
Of who I am.





"Fade… is an installation of a thousand iPhone images, representing the intimate, personal memories of photographer Tan Ngiap Heng. The images are hung in space like a cloud, like the memories suspended in our heads. Audience members are encouraged to take away and keep images that they like for themselves. This process of the installation disappearing is a meditation on how we lose our memories as we age."
- M1 Singapore Fringe Festival's write-up on Fade...

Fade... by Tan Ngiap Heng

(M1 Singapore Fringe Festival 2015)
14 – 25 January 2015, 10am – 8pm
The Platform, Level 2
National Museum of Singapore
Free Admission

Friday, January 11, 2013

Oh! We are the LEAPING FISH! - Leaping Fish in the City (20-22 March 2013)

“Are we living in a complex labyrinth and trying to find a space to breathe? Are we passing each other but have never noticed each other? Are we traveling from one point to another point of the Earth endlessly, trying to make a living or trying to live up to our dreams? Somehow, as part of the evolution into the frantic modern life, we learn how to live in the north, and also in the south; and we build our lives on earth and also live at levels beneath the earth. We have become adaptable. We are the
LEAPING FISH.”


Above is the publicity text for Leaping Fish in the City, a multimedia theatrical piece. What is a leaping fish? According to a report from BBC Nature, there are at least six different types of fish that are able to launch themselves into the air from a solid surface, and they are called the “Leaping Fish”.  This phenomenon is seen as an evolutionary snapshot of the transition from living in water to inhabiting land.




I was invited to view the work-in-progress of Leaping Fish in the City in November 2012. I especially like the segment that reflects the irony of humans inhabiting not just above the land but levels beneath the land too. This reminded me of Ion Orchard- shoppers travel all the way down to Basement 4!

Two main characters are presented in the piece.




One is a typical city dweller. One day, she starts to search for memories as part of her project. However, she is unable to find any. She starts to wonder “Am I living in a city without memories?”. She begins her search for memories, which include heritage, uniqueness of the city and people…

Another character is an unassuming peculiar man, who may irritate city dwellers with his seemingly undesirable habits. He speaks to himself while traveling on the bus, sings as he feels like singing, and dances on the street as he feels the music.

At several moments in the piece, they face each other while traveling in their daily lives. The city dweller has never noticed the man. These scenes give me a strong sense of how a modern person may reject the primitive or “raw” aspect of himself/herself. I wonder-- are we really that “advanced” to the extent that we have to reject old items, old memories, and the old self (which is our childhood?)...?





Certain segments may change, as the creative team continues to develop the work till 20 March 2013. I will give you an update of the creative process!

Directed by Ang Gey Pin, performed by Jacklyn Kuah and Vincent Chia, with visual, audio, and sound desiged by Nickolai D. Nickolov from Bulgaria, this is a piece filled with reflections, memories, and dreams, presented with an intellectually stimulating and humorous overtone.


Performance details:
Leaping Fish in the City
presented by In Source Theatre & The Substation. 
(It comprises English, Mandarin and dialect. There will be English subtitles and multimedia images.) 
Preview: Wednesday 20 March 2013,7pm 
Open to public: Thursday 21 to Friday 22 March 2013, 8pm 
The Substation Gallery 
Admission: $18 / $12 (Student, NSF and senior citizens) available from The Substation box office (6337 7800 / boxoffice@substation.org)

Sunday, August 26, 2012

Good to have memories. BUT- don’t trust them. ~ Thoughts and resonances after watching "Viennese Pork Chop"


Theatre Event: Viennese Pork Chop
Date & Time: 23 August 2012, 8pm
Venue: The Substation Theatre
Performers: Yap Sun Sun (Singapore), Andreas Pamperl (Austria) and Apollo Valentin Ye Yi Pamperl (Singapore and Austria)


I would not call this post a "review". While the performance was definitely a well-researched and crafted piece, I find that I will be doing injustice to it by classifying this post as a "review", as it is beyond a theatre piece that should be labeled with a grade or to be "marked" with a number (such as 9/10 or 6/10). This piece is beyond theatre though IT IS theatre.

If it is beyond theatre, then what is it to me?

It is a pulse, a beating heart, a musical note, a breath. Everything in the piece is so real and yet it is so theatrical.

The whole piece is constructed by memories. Performers Yap Sun Sun (protagonist) and Andreas Pamperl (musician and multimedia artist) created stories, multimedia images, songs and music based on their lives and the memories of their mothers (a Hakka Singaporean and a Steirisch Austrian). In short, it is an autobiographical performance which brings to life the stories of the performers and their son, as well as the stories of their mothers who never met each other but shared and enjoyed the same cuisine in each of their country-- pork. Yes, the piece does sound personal. However, from their individual memories, as an audience member, I was transported to a realm of collective memories. In that experience, it was as if we had a shared memory. The notion of shared memory in the black box space despite our diverse backgrounds was facilitated by the intimate performance setting. Audience members were seated at both sides of a long table on which Sun Sun performed. Most of the time, Andreas was at one end of the table providing multimedia projections and music to the performance. At times, he made comments and remarks as himself (a father and a son).

The intimacy of the setting in which audience members were positioned around a long dining table reminded me of Theatre Master Jerzy Grotowski's Dr Faustus (1963). The intimacy of the setting allowed the audience members to be closely linked to each other, not just physically but psychologically and emotionally in a collective manner. At the long table, though I did not know the other audience members, I felt that I was part of a large family. The sense of familial intimacy was heightened when the aromatic smell emitted from the pork chop filled the theatre, and when we were served with drinks and small slices of pork chop (we were each given a wooden food picker before the performance). As a big "family", stories of the actors and their mothers were narrated to us. Somehow, their stories became part of our own stories. I could identify with various issues presented by the performers-- how Chinese are being viewed as "dangerous" or second-class citizens in Europe (as I stayed in Italy for a year); the relationship between a mother and a child; and how I have been haunted by my own memories in the forms of dreams, desires and recollections.

Several humorous moments made me laugh and yet moved me to tears and resonated deeply in me. For instance, the exaggeration of the taste of Singaporean foods in Sun Sun's memories when she was in Vienna was humorous and at the same time reflected how we tend to amplify various sensations in our memories. Singaporean foods such as Mee Rebus, chilli crabs and chicken rice were all magnified in her memories when she was away from Singapore. However, when she is back in Singapore, these dishes do not taste as nice as what she had in her memories. While Sun Sun was in her monologue expressing her desire for Singaporean foods when she was in Vienna, Andreas threw in a highly meaningful and humorous statement- "You can have your memories, but don't trust them". Yes, memories are always larger than life. We tend to add in more imagination to our memories. Memories are beyond factual descriptions of life. Memories include our longings, dreams, desires and nostalgia. Dark humour was also seen in the scene where Sun Sun narrated about Andreas' experience of accidents in his family with exaggeration. This episode of story ended with audience's participation in the chanting of "so much blood" together with the performers. Ironically, audience members were holding the piece of pork chop for consumption while chanting "so much blood". I interpreted the pork chop (a dead animal) as "blood" in our hands.

Other moments that touched me was Sun Sun's search for the meaning of "home" and her search for one "happy moment" that she had shared with her mother. As an immigrant in Vienna, Sun Sun questioned the notion of "home" to her. Where is her home? Is it where she grew up? Is it where she lives now? Is it where her family is? Which part of her family? Or -- is it the mother's womb? When Sun Sun was back in Singapore after years of being away from her mother, she realized that the mother with dementia has no longer recognized her. She was trying to look for a happy memory that she had with her mother so that she could help her mother to recall something. And yet, she could not find any. Then she realized that the "happiest moment" that she has with her mother existed in "present". She rebuilt her memories with her mother in "present". The happiest memory that she has with her mother was the moment she held onto her hands for a long time after all futile search for a happy moment between them. Through her excellent acting and with her versatile way of handling different genres of songs—from popular songs to folk songs, Sun Sun managed to bring us along on her search journey in a manner that moved us emotionally.

While Sun Sun and Andreas were the main performers in the piece, their 10 years old son Apollo was involved in the performance too, as the chef of Viennese Pork Chop in the mini cooking show within the piece. Apollo's role in the piece though small, was highly commendable. He was attentive to the development of plot in theatre and was responsive to every movement and expression emanated from both the performers and the audience. He executed every moment of his action with precision and natural aliveness. At the scene where he was tapping the meat, the rhythmic sounds of tapping added to the musicality of the piece when the sounds fused in together with the theatrical music. Andreas has also made good use of different multimedia and live music to create this space of collective memory for both the performers and the audience.

Overall, I laughed and I teared in Viennese Pork Chop, which is to me humorous and sad at the same time. It was a black comedy with 4-D experience to me. My five senses, as well as my conscious and subconscious minds were engaged in the performance. The performers have excellent sense of managing rhythm within each individual action as well as in the development of the plot. There is no one boring moment in the piece, maybe because I was busy during the performance too. I was busy with connecting and disconnecting with memories that were being provoked by the piece. Some of them were pleasant, some were not. Some of them appeared by surprise to me, just like this blog post. This post itself is a surprise to me too, as I did not plan to write a post on this performance as I entered the theatre.